Introduction

I'm going to be honest, I don't really know why I have started this blog. I guess it would be a comforting idea that other people out there think similarly to me, believed the same philosophies and shared the same ideas. However I don't even think I want people to read what I'm writing because of how honest I want to be through this; but then what's the point of a blog right? 
I'll start with introducing myself on a somewhat superficial level, then as the blog progresses whoever reads this will eventually get a perception of who I am.
I'm 17 to start with, so ignorant towards a lot of things, however completely aware of the "real world" so don't tell me to see how difficult things are when I "enter" it like it's a whole other dimension because I am not going to fucking listen. 
I go to sixth form in my home town  and I used to hate it. Last year I wasn't happy there at all and everyone used to annoy me constantly however that's changed; I'm not quite sure why but this year I'm just happier with the whole dynamics and even though there are a few select people I know I'll never get on well enough with to consider friends and they play the shittest music known to man in the common room when I leave I'll probably miss it. I'm doing English Literature, Psychology and Art. English Literature I chose simply because of the fabulous Giles Watson, one of the most underrated human beings in history; I believe that when he leaves the school there should be a statue of him displayed proudly in front the school with his glorious shirts and waistcoats and a pipe. I chose psychology because I'm interested in human nature and I like trying to understand why people think and behave the way they do - my teacher for psychology Rebecca Heath too deserves some sort of memorabilia at the school. Art was one of my choices because I love everything about it; the concept not particularly the subject; too much coursework and I think the way they mark it is too structured for such an abstract subject. My favourite artist is Vincent Van Gogh; he's the only artist who has given me goosebumps and actually made me shed a tear. 
Sometimes I'm too socially awkward for my own good which I know is stupid because I don't have to impress anyone, I just think people need time to come to terms to how weird I can be.
I love music. It's an expression of emotion I can't quite comprehend; how someone can write beautiful lyrics and finds the correct succession of chords and beats is beyond me as someone with no musical talent. And even though I would love to be musical, the fact I'm not in a way it makes it all the more interesting that there are people out there who have the ability to create emotions through sound. 
I am also a huge movie fan. Certain movies have just got it ie: The Great Dictator. That fucking speech is hair raising. My favourite directors are Quentin Tarantino and Wes Anderson both of which are on the complete opposite sides of the scale. I will probably write - at some point - at just how amazing they are. 
I think I finally know what to do with my life but I have no fucking clue how to get there. All I want to do is humanitarian work, so maybe work for the UN? Work my way to the point where I can start my own organisation and help people my own way, because being just another member of an organisation doesn't seem satisfying enough for me. Maybe do some writing on the side. Hopefully one day, a creative spark will explode and a best selling novel will be written through my pen and I can use that money to travel and give to schools and help people in debt. Hey, it's not impossible. 
I think people should be more honest and genuine, not just to others but to themselves. Other people aren't going to be in your life forever, but you will be. 
I am also a true believer in empathy. The worlds would be a much better place if we were all a bit more empathetic and understanding towards one another. 

My dinner party guests include:
Christopher McCandless
Jim Morrison
Charlie Chaplin
Charles Manson
Vincent Van Gogh
Lydia Woodall
Joe Thurston
James Kane
It would be the fucking greatest.

I think that's about it for now. I don't really have a lot to say about myself to be honest.